There are times when I think to myself, “I should probably grow up”. This usually occurs when I’m hungover at work. My two buddies at work and I eat lunch together every day and although we are relatively close in age, we’re all in very different places in our lives. The other day, we were talking about what we had done the previous night, which for the record was a Wednesday. One of them had looked at houses to buy with his wife, the other had begun planning the nursery he and pregnant wife we going to create…and I got drunk and played a wildly inappropriate card game with my friends at a dinner party. Now several months ago my answer probably would have been making dinner and watching TV with my boyfriend-at-the-time, but being single has breathed a sort of ‘new life’ into me. When I heard what the boys had spent their free time doing my thought was not, “I should think about getting married” or “I wonder how difficult it is to get a mortgage on a house.” Instead, my first reaction was “…well that sucks!”
A few months ago, I went to visit my grandfather in the hospital and it ended up being the last time I saw him as he died 3 days after my visit. He was 90 years old and very ill so he couldn’t speak much, but right before I left he looked at me and said, “To be young again”. I kept hearing those words in my head on the car ride back and I started thinking about what it means to be young. We all have different outlooks on the subject, but for me being young is about freedom and choice.
I absolutely love that I can do whatever I want (within reason and my budget, of course) because not only am I young; I’m ‘free’. I don’t have anything ‘holding me back’ as I’m not married, I don’t have any children, and I don’t own my apartment. I’m planning to make some big changes to start the next chapter of my life and it’s amazing simply for the reason that I can. I love that there are so many choices and options laying ahead just waiting for me to find them.
I know that some day I will get married, have children, and create a new ‘adult’ life…but not for a while. For now, I’m going to enjoy my youth so that when I’m old and living my final days I can look back and think “Damn I was awesome, that was one hell of a ride.”