I know that’s corny and it rhymes, but I thought it was clever and it might have made me giggle when I thought of it. Don’t judge me.
I just got caught in what I like to refer as a “mind trap”. A mind trap is basically when a thought goes awry and spirals out of control leading to stress and (potentially) a panic attack . Like I started thinking that in three weekends I’m going to get to see my friends again (good thought). Then I thought about the fact that we’re going to need a car (bad thought). Then I thought about the weekend after that weekend where I’m either going to need a car or muster up the patience and serenity for a very long train ride. Then I thought how am I going to get back in time for dinner with my family or if I should even say I’ll be there. And then I noticed that I was panting and my eyes were bulging out of my head. Instead of continuing to fall deeper into the mind trap, I took a deep breath and said to myself –
Two simple words that can have a tremendous impact. I could have let my mind keep running wild and let the racing thoughts spiral into a panic attack, but I didn’t. I chose to do less, and what that means is I chose to focus on one thought. One that was the most relevant and easiest to control. In this case, I chose to think about this weekend. This weekend is simple – I’m not going anywhere and the only defined plan I have is to get my hair cut. Easy, low stress. But then I could think about the stylist fucking my hair up and what if the prices online were wrong and it ends up costing a shit ton of money and then – PAUSE. Deep breath. Do less. I’ll just think about today. What is going on today. Not tomorrow or in two days, just today. Just this hour, even.
It can be easy to fall into mind traps and let your thoughts race and take over. Well, it’s easy when you have bipolar disorder and you’re still adjusting to your medication, but I assume this type of thing happens to everyone. Right?
We all get stressed. Even fun things, like parties and other social gatherings that require planning, can be stressful. But that stress can ruin it and that’s stupid because stress is an unnecessary evil that tries to ruin everyone’s lives. So do yourself a favor – don’t fall into the mind trap or give into the evil temptress of stress (that also sort of rhymed ::self-five::). Instead, take a breath and do less. If you need a reminder, tattoo the word “Breathe” on your wrist. I did and it’s done wonders. Then you could get “Do Less” on your other wrist!
I may be onto something here…