Depression is a dick for many reasons. It waits for an event or moment that’s extremely important to you, whether it be a visit from your best friend or an interview for your dream job, and then right when you’re supposed to be happy and excited BAM! Depression is here and it’s ready to ruin your day. Or week. Or month. Or year.
Depression is a dick because it’s like having a leech stuck to your foot. It slowly drains you of your energy, excitement, and passion. While no one around you sees the cause, they all see the result. They say “Why are you so down all the time? You used to be fun,” and “Can’t you just snap out of it?” But you know it’s the depression that’s making you like this. You think, “I am fun, I just don’t feel like myself right now. I’m trying to snap out of it, but it doesn’t work like that.”
Depression is a dick because it makes colors fade into grey. Foods that used to make your mouth water start to taste like cardboard. Friends that used to make you happy start to make you exhausted and embarrassed. Work that used to fulfill you starts to drain you. And getting out of bed suddenly starts to seem impossible.
But the main reason depression is a dick, the reason I don’t think people realize, is that depression lies.
As depression sinks in and takes a hold of you, it becomes harder to fight back and easier to give in. Instead of thinking “I am fun,” you think “They’re right. I must not be fun to be around anymore.” Depression makes its way into your mind and tells you that you’re not good at your job, you’re not attractive, you’re not likable, and you’re not worthy of happiness. And if you let it, depression can make you think that your life isn’t worth living.
Do not listen to it.
Fight back against it. Fight back with therapy, medication, art, music, loved ones – anything that makes you happy. Don’t listen to depression when it tells you those things don’t matter anymore, remember that depression is a dick and it’s lying to you.
Remember that you are talented, you are beautiful, you are loved, and you are extremely worthy of happiness. Don’t let depression win.