I have had a lot of jobs, I’m what some would call a “job hopper”. My resume is two pages not because of my many accomplishments (queue sarcasm), but because writing all the different companies, addresses, and dates worked there takes up a lot of space. The longest I’ve ever stayed at a job is less than two years, which to me seems like an eternity. It’s almost become a joke with my friends and family because you never know where I’ll be working the next time you see me. All joking aside, I kept changing jobs because I wasn’t happy. I put such a strong emphasis on job satisfaction leading to happiness that I set up myself up to fail. I couldn’t look past my father’s guidance that jobs are here to pay bills and happiness is found outside of work. My brain was unable to comprehend that concept and I continued my search for the “perfect job”.
The “perfect job” doesn’t exist. Well, I guess some people get to wake up and do what they love and feel fulfilled every day, but I think it’s safe to say that most people don’t get that. Not everyone can turn a passion into profit and use their hobbies and interests to sustain a living. I get that now. I left a lot of good companies because my unrealistic expectations weren’t being met, but I also left a few bad ones because my intuition was right. Now I find myself at a technical writer’s dream job; a major tech company. I’ve never loved what I do for work but there definitely parts of the job that I enjoy. These parts were not always obvious to me, but I was able to pick them out when I sat down and really thought about why I’ve stayed in my field. Even though I don’t love what I do, I’m very lucky that I love where I do it. I have the privilege of working for a company that treats people like humans and makes a product that millions of people enjoy every day. Although I don’t love my company every day, sometimes it feels like a massive cluster f*ck, overall I can honestly say I love this company. This is meaningful to me because I’ve worked places I wished would burn to the ground. But even though I love my company, I’ve had times where I’ve hated my job.
A few months ago I found myself in the uncomfortably familiar place of not feeling any semblance of job satisfaction. I was bored and felt underutilized and unappreciated. But after I got over feeling sorry for myself I came to the realization that I was as a massive tech company – no one was monitoring my every move and no one was going to fix my problems for me. I talked to my manager and before I knew it, work came pouring back in and I was feeling much better about my position. But something interesting happened yesterday.
Yesterday, we had a department-wide meeting where each team gathered together to write down their goals for the quarter and how they would achieve them. Since I’m not a developer or a product person, I had nothing to contribute. I sat around for three hours trying to figure out what people were talking about and nodded so much that my neck is sore today. When it came time for the teams to present their findings, I looked around the room and thought, “I am by far the dumbest person in this room, and none of the work I do really matters.” Strangely enough, this didn’t make me feel bad, it made me feel relieved.
At all my other jobs, and this one for a while, I got really down about not pursuing my passion and that most of the work I did didn’t really matter. But while I was standing in that room yesterday something clicked; none of that matters. I work for an amazing company that gives me amazing benefits and treats me better than any company I’ve ever worked for. I work with good, smart people who don’t make me want to bash my h head into a desk. I don’t need it to me my passion because it allows me the time and resources to pursue mine. I may not be needed or produce valuable work all the time, but when I do it makes me feel really good that I can provide a needed service. My department doesn’t need me every day, but when they do I’m here and ready to help them. When I step back and look at all that, it looks pretty damn good.
Sometimes we have to reevaluate our expectations and realize that not everything looks the way we planned it, but that isn’t necessarily a bad thing. When you can appreciate what you do have and stop focusing on what you don’t, it makes the things you have seem great. And if you aren’t able to see the good and need to make the change, give me a call – I’m a master resume writer and have a rolodex of recruiters.